Wednesday, March 23, 2005

A week later...

And what a week it's been. J started running fever again last Wednesday afternoon - daycare called and said his temperature was 102, to come get him. On Thursday his temp was back up to 104, so hi ho, hi ho, off to the doctor we went. She said it could have been the virus hanging on, or could have been the sinus infection not yet responding to antibiotics, but that a jump back up in fever like that called for bloodwork and x-rays to make sure it wasn't anything more serious. UGH. J did really well with the blood draw - he fussed more about having the bandage to hold the cotton on his arm after it was over than he did the actual draw - but he was beyond tired and cranky during the x-rays, and very displeased about having to sit in certain positions. My tiny boy. *SIGH* So I was off last Thursday and Friday with him. Thankfully he was back to his perky self by Friday, no fever, but the doc still said I should keep him home that day, so I did.

He took NAPS over the weekend!!!!! This is huge, as he hadn't taken any weekend naps since he started sleeping in his big boy bed. Saturday he fell asleep in the floor with his head on his little chair and slept for about 2 hours. The nap was late enough to push bedtime back a bit, but that break sure was nice. Sunday he laid down in the floor with his head on the chair, asked for milk, and was snoring in minutes! And that nap was early enough that it didn't interfere with bedtime. So maybe, hopefully naps will be a part of the weekends again.

And then I was off Monday, taking care of the loan closing! WOO HOO!!!!!!!! Funds will be in my account Friday afternoon. The downside is, I have to run back up there Friday morning - you have 3 days to cancel the transaction by law, and the lender I'm using requires that you deliver the paperwork saying you aren't taking it back in person rather than by mail or fax. So that's a bit inconvenient, but I'll just run up there before work on Friday. And it will then be a DONE DEAL!!!! I've already ordered a new mattress, it will be delivered on Monday.

Then I got to come back to work on Tuesday after having been out for three days. OMG, it was hideous. I was so busy, I didn't know if I was coming or going. I know work tends to stack up when you're out no matter what job you have, but it seems like it stacks up to a greater extent here. Not sure why that is.

And tonight is my late night, so I'll be here until 7:00. This, after having an up-and-down night with J wanting a drink, wanting to be rocked, wanting to be covered up with his blanket. *YAWN*

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Another quick fly-by

The J-man was sick all weekend. Went to the doc on Monday - viral throat infection and sinus infection. He's on antibiotics and some cough syrup/decongestant with codeine. You'd think it would knock him right out, but no. At least he took a 2 1/2 hour nap while we were home on Monday, so he and I both got some much-needed rest (Sunday night was just brutal, fever, chills, all sorts of fun stuff). He's better now, not quite back to 100%, but better. I had to laugh - when I pulled into the parking lot at daycare this morning, I said, "yay, school!" J said, "Stop it, mama, I no like school." I said, well, then, what do you want to do if you don't want to go to school? He looked at me with this big cheesy grin and said, "Go home!" LOLOL Yeah, buddy, you got a day off with mama and decided that was way more fun than school, I know how you work!

And it was too funny - when I picked him up yesterday, one of the little girls in his class was trying her darnedest to give him a hug, and he was having nothing to do with it. Girls - so it begins.... LOL

Looks like the loan may close on Monday. Woo hoo!!!! Mama's going mattress shopping!!! I woke up this morning with my back just killing me. The one on my bed right now is absolute crap. I am SO looking forward to sleeping on something that doesn't cause me pain. And I'll be getting a new home computer, too, so hopefully I can blog more often (I'm hesitant about getting on too much at work, which is why I've kind of disappeared recently).

Other than that, it's just work, eat, sleep, and damn, do I ever need to find time for exercise. I'm thinking about buying a punching bag and taking up boxing. What do y'all think? Anyone have any experience with that?

Saturday, March 12, 2005

What is the deal?!

I have had the worst time lately posting from home. AARGH. Either it doesn't go through, or I end up posting twice. That loan can't close soon enough, mama needs a new computer and a new mattress.

J is sick. He was running fever of almost 102 last night, and he's so snotted up it hurts me to hear him trying to breathe. He was restless last night, woke up at 6:00 this morning wanting to be rocked, and was up for the day at 6:50. UGH. I was hoping to refill his every-other-week prescription for Zithromax today, to get a head start on what I'm pretty sure is a sinus infection, but insurance wouldn't pay for it. I'd just refilled it March 5, and they said it was too soon. *fume, fuss, fret* The cash price was $78, and it just wasn't there today. So I reckon we'll just be going to the doctor bright and early Monday morning. Sweet boy, he doesn't slow down much when he's sick, but he's been a bit grumpier than usual today, and not completely his usual perky self. He's sleeping with the vaporizer on (no nap today, it took him about 10 seconds to sack out when he went to bed!), and hopefully that will keep his head clear enough that he can sleep well tonight. I think we could both do with a good night's rest!

Now, let's see if *this* will post....

Resurfacing

Geez, I can't remember the last time I wrote. Hope I don't repeat myself! LOL

The appraisal came back better than expected - my jaw actually dropped when I got the e-mail from the loan processor! So it looks like I'll be getting a little more cash back than originally thought. I'm ready for it now, now, now - time to buy a new mattress and a new computer!

J is sick. :-( He was awfully pink and felt warm when I picked him up yesterday afternoon, and when we got home, his temperature was 101.6. :-( So last night was another restless night (the third in a row, I think), he woke up at 6:00 wanting to be rocked, and then was up at 6:50 for the day. No nap, fever, and GRUMPY, GRUMPY, GRUMPY. He's sleeping now, I've got the vaporizer in there close to him - hopefully that will keep him clear enough so he can sleep well. I think we both need the rest! I'm pretty sure it's another sinus infection. He hasn't had nearly as many this year as he did last, so I can't complain too much (at this point, our pediatrician has probably revoked our frequent patient card! LOL). But still, it hurts me knowing that he's feeling bad. Not that it slows him down much, but he's not quite his usual perky self when he doesn't feel good. And a couple of times today, he just turned into a howling wildebeest and had meltdowns over seemingly inconsequential things. *SIGH* That makes me tired. Here's hoping we'll all sleep tonight.

Resurfacing

Geez, I can't remember the last time I wrote. Hope I don't repeat myself! LOL

The appraisal came back better than expected - my jaw actually dropped when I got the e-mail from the loan processor! So it looks like I'll be getting a little more cash back than originally thought. I'm ready for it now, now, now - time to buy a new mattress and a new computer!

J is sick. :-( He was awfully pink and felt warm when I picked him up yesterday afternoon, and when we got home, his temperature was 101.6. :-( So last night was another restless night (the third in a row, I think), he woke up at 6:00 wanting to be rocked, and then was up at 6:50 for the day. No nap, fever, and GRUMPY, GRUMPY, GRUMPY. He's sleeping now, I've got the vaporizer in there close to him - hopefully that will keep him clear enough so he can sleep well. I think we both need the rest! I'm pretty sure it's another sinus infection. He hasn't had nearly as many this year as he did last, so I can't complain too much (at this point, our pediatrician has probably revoked our frequent patient card! LOL). But still, it hurts me knowing that he's feeling bad. Not that it slows him down much, but he's not quite his usual perky self when he doesn't feel good. And a couple of times today, he just turned into a howling wildebeest and had meltdowns over seemingly inconsequential things. *SIGH* That makes me tired. Here's hoping we'll all sleep tonight.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Well, crap.

No, nothing bad has happened, I just had a long post written out and then lost it. Harrumph. I don't think I have the energy to recreate it, so here's the nutshell version of what I wrote:

*Work is work.

*Traffic sucks, some days more than others.

*My checking account is overdrawn again, dammit. Isn't a law degree worth more than this without me having to sell my soul to the almighty billable hour?

*J is a hoot and a half, in spite of the occasional flaming meltdown, and I adore him and wish I could videotape everything he says and does, to have it all for future reference. But then I'd miss the real thing, and that would never do.

*Got the appraisal results - long story short, it was a good bit higher than I expected, and there's more money in the house than I can afford to get out. I've asked them to figure payment amounts for a couple of different, higher loan amounts, so a bit more cash may come out, but not more than I can afford to take. I'm trying to *fix* financial woes, not make them worse. Closing should take place by the 25th, so I should have cash in hand by month end. Woo hoo!!!!!!!!! Here's hoping this is a sign of *good* things to come (things which I think are long overdue).

And now, it's night-night time.

Another little update

Things have pretty much been rocking along here. Work is work, traffic sucks daily (some days worse than others), and just call me our lady of the perpetually short of cash. Yep, it's a week until payday, and my checking account is overdrawn again. *SIGH* I should think my law degree would be worth more than this.

But in some good news - the appraiser came out on Monday, and the loan processor got in touch with me today to let me know the results. The house appraised for quite a bit more than I was expecting - when I saw the figure in her e-mail, my jaw literally dropped. Let's just say there's more money in the house than I can afford to take out. :-) The house has increased nicely in value since K and I moved here in 1996. I asked the processor to figure the payments for two different, higher loan amounts, so I can see just how much I can afford. Any extra cash I get and put into savings can only be a good thing, as long as it's not more than I can afford. Payments will be a bit higher because of escrow, but I'm just looking at that as my forced savings account for taxes and insurance, and it relieves me of having to scramble for those big chunks of change every year. So I'm hoping this is a sign of more good news to come. The loan should close by the 25th, so I should have cash in hand by the end of the month. Woo hoo!!!

J does funny things every day. I wish I could just videotape every single thing he says and does so I could relive it all, and have some more concrete reference than my often flawed memory. But then I'd miss the real deal, wouldn't I? :-) Yes, there are times I lose patience, and yes, there are times he's strong-willed and obstinate and whiny and occasionally, just downright cantankerous. But he's a sweet, funny, adorable, loving boy who says "Bless you, mama!" when I sneeze and holds my hand when we walk across parking lots. And some of the things he does and says just make me laugh out loud. Tonight I was trying to get him to sleep, and the last couple of nights he's wanted me to rock him (I've cherished these moments, because he doesn't ask to be rocked very often anymore!). Tonight he said, "mama, want rock a baby (rock-a-bye baby)." I said, do you want me to rock you? "Hum." Do you want me to sing rock-a-bye baby? "Hum." So we rocked and I sang, and every time I'd stop, he'd say, "Do again!" So I'd sing some more. This is a novel concept, he usually asks me to *stop* singing! LOL Sweet baby boy. I sure do love him.

And now, I'd better get some sleep.

Monday, March 07, 2005

Just a little update

Not that there's been a whole lot to update about, I just wanted to post in case anyone was wondering if I'd fallen off the planet. LOL

It was a no-nap, meltdown weekend with the J-man. *SIGH* Bless his heart, he is so two. I've had friends tell me three gets worse before it starts to get better at ages four and five. Please, say it ain't so! Ah well, I guess I can't complain too much. He really is a good boy, and so smart he scares me. I'll write more about that later, it's late and I'm tired.

Other weekend fun: cleaning. Four big trash bags of crap gone, and my house is *still* cluttered. Not as much, but still, it needs more work. How does so much junk pile up?!

The appraiser came today. He was here for about 40 minutes or so, said he'd have his report to the loan officer tomorrow. Y'all keep your fingers crossed that it's a good one!

And now, off to bed. More later.

Just a little update

Not that there's been a whole lot to update about, I just wanted to post in case anyone was wondering if I'd fallen off the planet. LOL

It was a no-nap, meltdown weekend with the J-man. *SIGH* Bless his heart, he is so two. I've had friends tell me three gets worse before it starts to get better at ages four and five. Please, say it ain't so! Ah well, I guess I can't complain too much. He really is a good boy, and so smart he scares me. I'll write more about that later, it's late and I'm tired.

Other weekend fun: cleaning. Four big trash bags of crap gone, and my house is *still* cluttered. Not as much, but still, it needs more work. How does so much junk pile up?!

The appraiser came today. He was here for about 40 minutes or so, said he'd have his report to the loan officer tomorrow. Y'all keep your fingers crossed that it's a good one!

And now, off to bed. More later.

Thursday, March 03, 2005

All boy, all the time....

Well, I got to daycare Tuesday afternoon to find that J has his first official shiner. My poor baby. I asked him what happened, and he said, "Collin hit with that dump truck!" I said, "Did Collin hit you with a dump truck?" "Hum (yes)." I said, "Did Collin say he was sorry?" "Hum." I kissed it and said, "Is it better now?" "Hum!" His teacher said it was just an accident, and I know those happen when you've got a room full of 2 1/2-year-olds, no matter how closely you watch them. He has a big bruise under his left eye, and even a purple mark on the bridge of his nose. That Collin must pack a wallop! His teacher said they'd put cold compresses on it, and at one point she asked J if he wanted the cold on it a little longer. His response? "No, it's all better." So no permanent damage done, he just looks rough. K said he's going to get J a shirt that says, "You should see the other kid." LOLOL Even now, a couple of days later, it's pretty ferocious. At first it was just the big bruise under his eye, on his cheekbone, and the bridge of his nose. Now the purple is all the way up under his eye. *SIGH* It's been a little swollen, but is going down now, and he doesn't act like it hurts him. I'm sure this is just the first of many bumps and scrapes and bruises - after all, he is a boy.

And now I'm going to whine about something completely unrelated. Why is it so hard to make friends with some people at work? I've been here almost a year. Our team leader is close to my age and while she isn't an attorney, she has a legal background. One of my other team members is an attorney, and I talk a lot to them both. Another co-worker left a few months ago to take the Texas bar, so she also falls in the female attorney category (there aren't that many of us up here). The co-worker who left is meeting the other two for lunch today. We all work in cubes, so I overheard them talking about it. I mentioned it to my attorney friend, "oh, I hear y'all are going to lunch with so-and-so, how'd she do on the bar, etc." She said yes, they were going to lunch, it would be good to see her and so on. (and here's the whiny part) But not a word was said about the possibility of me joining them. I don't get that. We're all close in age, we have the same kind of background, I know the woman that they're going to lunch with, we're all friends - but I never seem to get lunch invites when they go. I go out to lunch with co-workers, I invite others to go, it's just that I never seem to be asked to go with these two. Given the things we have in common, you'd think it might occur to them to ask me. But no, never. It feels like high school, where there's one little clique you just can't break into, no matter how hard you try. And you might wonder, well, you've got other friends there, Lisa, why is this important to you? Because there are a lot of my friends here who are older than me. These two women are close to my age, one has kids, one wants kids, and we go through a lot of the same stuff. It would be nice for all my work friends not to be 10 or 15 or 20 years older. There, whining over for now. Maybe I'll invite them to lunch sometime, or invite myself if I hear them talking (although that always seems so rude - I'm of the school of thought that if someone was interested in my presence, they'd ask).

I haven't written much the last couple of days because it seems like things have been just rocking along. I'll be doing some cleaning and picking up this weekend - the appraiser comes on Monday to do the appraisal for the home equity loan. Y'all keep your fingers crossed that it goes well! I'm pretty sure that if the loan wasn't going to happen, the loan officer would have said so up front, and wouldn't have required all the paperwork and rigmarole. But still - I'll feel better when it's a done deal, and I have cash in hand and debts paid off.

Now, off to eat something for lunch - I'm hungry!

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

This Week's Unconscious Mutterings

From Unconscious Mutterings - this week's words and what they call to mind for me:

  1. You’ve got a friend:: James Taylor
  2. Immigration:: Texas
  3. Waitress:: Tip
  4. Snickers:: Chocolate
  5. Recognize:: Know
  6. Concept:: Theory
  7. Birthday:: Party
  8. Told you so:: Nyah nyah nyah
  9. Unlikely:: Why even try?
  10. Extension:: Cord

Starting off slowly

Today has started off a bit better than yesterday, but not much. J had a little accident last night. Somehow he slipped off my bed and wedged himself between the bed and the nightstand. In the process he scraped his leg, his back and his arm, and since he is my child, there are sure to be bruises (I bruise if the wind blows at me the wrong way! LOL). *SIGH* He screamed, I screamed, and we all had a little fit. I thought he bumped his head, but when I asked him, he said he hadn't. The bruises and scrapes didn't look too bad this morning, but I'm sure they'll darken in a day or so. My poor boy - he needs body armor. I took the precaution of explaining what had happened to his teacher, I didn't want her to think there was any need to call in CPS. :) Poor baby, he got his mama's clumsy gene. I can just about trip over shadows, and apparently so can he.

He woke up twice last night, once at 12:40, soaking wet and with a loaded pair of underpants, and once at 4:20, just screaming. I think he had a bad dream then - he laid right back down after I hugged him, and was asleep by the time I got back with the milk he'd requested. So it's not like he was up a long time on either occasion, but the interrupted sleep just doesn't do me much good.

And the morning battles continue. *SIGH* People say you should get up early, plan extra time into your routine when you're trying to get out of the house with a young child. Yeah, right. I could probably get J up at 5:30 and still not get out of the house until after 7:00. It took ages to get him into the car - everything was "no, no, no". I was just about to pick him up and carry him (a feat that's getting more challenging by the day - what will I do when he figures out that mama picking him up and moving him is an idle threat?!) when he ran out to the garage, ready to go. He left his toys in the truck with no fuss today, and drop-off was much improved, so other than the power struggle to get out of the house and the fact that I was horrifically late (not getting here, I was here by 8:30, just late leaving), it was better than yesterday.

Talked to the loan officer yesterday - she got my paperwork, and it's gone to processing. The appraiser is supposed to call and set up a time to come by. I hope they don't count off for clutter - I'm in the middle of dejunking and trying to organize so much that some things are pretty piled up. I just want it to appraise for at least what I thought it was worth (which was about $20,000 less than the value for property tax purposes - I'm hoping the appraisal comes close to what the tax office says my house is worth!). I'll feel a lot better when it's a done deal. I know if it was going to be turned down, the loan officer would have told me that up front, and it wouldn't have even gotten to the point of filling out all this paperwork and doing an appraisal. But still, I'm nervous, and I'll be less so when it's done and signed and I have cash in hand and only one big payment to make (no more car payment, no more credit cards, woo hoo!!!!).