Monday, November 07, 2005
Yesterday I was happy
Today I am not. As soon as I got to work, the crap came crashing down around my ears. My quarterly review is tomorrow. One of the big issues at my last review was complaints. I'd done pretty well on staying on top of things - until recently. I had about two or three come in in the last couple of weeks, and my manager's e-mail has said we'll discuss this at the review. I'm just sick. There goes any chance for a bonus or raise next year, I'm sure. And dammit, I'm human. I try to stay on top of things, I really do. But sometimes things get past - unfortunately for me, the ones that slip past are usually the ones that come back and make a really big noise about it. But I'm just tired of feeling incompetent, because I do. How can I be perfect, though? Maybe I'm just not cut out for this job. All I know is, I feel like crap right now. I want to cry and kick something, and I can't do either.