Wednesday, December 29, 2004

A dilemma

Should I eat the leftover chili I brought for lunch, which is relatively healthy and has some nutritional value, or should I stick with Hershey kisses? Seriously, my job is stressing me out so much right now, the Hershey kisses would probably go down a lot easier than the chili.

I am trying so hard to keep a positive attitude. I know life could be so much worse - look at the victims of the earthquake and tsunami in Asia, now there's a situation that I can't even imagine how horrible it must be. When you know there are people in the world facing loss of loved ones, loss of everything they own and everything they know, the risk of disease, whose very survival is nothing short of a miracle, it seems so petty for me to whine and complain about my little problems. My pitiful bank balance and troubles at work seem so small in comparison to the suffering of others, and I feel like I don't even have the right to whine and gripe and complain. And yet my job keeps finding ways to attack my resolution to be more positive, new barbs and stings to bring me down. And it does bring me down. I feel my shoulders stoop as I sit here at my desk, feeling like I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders. YUCK. I don't expect I'll ever have a job I'm truly passionate about and absolutely adore, but is it too much to hope for one that doesn't make me feel like I'm a failure and a screw-up every time I turn around? Whine whine, bitch bitch. So much for that positive attitude, huh?

I'd better go grab something for lunch - jury's still out as to whether it will be chocolate or chili. We'll see.


Jay said...

How was the chocolate?

mark said...

I hope your 2005 is much better than your 2004.

mark, way up in cedar rapids, iowa

Lisa said...

Jay, the chocolate was tasty, thanks. ;) I did eat my chili, though - well, at least some of it. I merely supplemented with chocolate.

And thank you, Mark, for the good wishes! I'm hoping 2005 will be a big improvement over 2004.